Falling In Love

Have you ever falling in love?


Ah, simple questions. It’s not hard to answer. Most of you (especially girls) will answer : Yes, I have.


Now I ask you. Are you sure you are falling in love? If someone ask this question, perhaps I can be speechless. Why? Because sometimes, I won’t sure with my feels. When I feel ‘something unusual’ to a male, I never believe with my self. 
In the first time, I make my self sure that I just like to see his face. But after a while, I think I get a crush on him. Next, when I’m getting closer to him, I will think that maybe I’m falling in love. When he hurt my heart, I think He is my only one love that can makes me cry. When he is getting far, I think he just  a fool who ever comes into my life. When I’m in the process to forget him, I keep saying on myself that I don’t love him anymore. When I get crush with other male (but haven’t forget him yet) I will think that He just used to be my crush, and my love are this new boy.


So..... the point is, me, as a typical teenager girl, always changed my mind and doesn’t understand what is the meaning of love. 

Someone ever said this to me “ You will know when you falling in love when you feel it” 
But how can I know if I still can make a different between love and crush? Until this second I have ever feel something to some boys. And honestly I don’t know which one of them are my love and which one of them just my another crush. 
 People said that when you falling in love, you will stalk him secretly. I do it, too! But in the same time I can cry a lot when listening to the some which can reminds me about my last ‘love’ 


Is it any wrong with me or is it just usual another teen’s attitude?

Saturday - After SMANSA'S Orientation

AAAHHHH I don't know how to tell you how tired how fun and how can I be the coordinator for XB lol
After school orientation (It takes a few days, I mean, three days), And I can be one of the committees, In saturday, we are committees and our junior spend our time for fun~


I can uploading some photos (with me inside) in this post cekitout ~~~>


In front of hall with Sri, Harme, Kak Icus, Shika, Memet, Kak Assi, and Oji

Me (smiling) with some of my junior^^ (I mean, many) (Guess between these junior which one could be my crush?) :P

In front of hall (again) with some of committees before closing ceremony

Me (from right to  left) then the victim (she's having birthday) Adil, Manda, and Mirzha. Happy Birthday!!

Honestly, I have more to tell but.... I just lazy :p

My (un)Happy Holiday

Do you know? My holiday are sucks. After get stressed because of social class, I have spent my holiday (almost of time) at home! I would get out from my home if my parents ask me to go out. Don't ask me why I'm not spend my holiday with my friends! Actually some of them ask me to go out but I rejected it. I have a reason that yeah, just me and God who knows.
Everyday, when I was just woke up, I have some breakfast, then sometimes take a bath, after that I'm going to my cyber shop (call it warnet) besides my house and tadaaaaa...! This is my bestfriend in my holiday:

Yap, you can guess what is it. T-W-I-T-T-E-R
Actually I'm getting bored with this social network, but I have no idea, eh have no more fun social network anymore except Twitter.
This is site where I can be so happy when @justinbieber followed me, where I can be so sad and amaze when read a timeline, yeah, something like that.
It's better than just watching TV or videos all the time, right?
But I hope I can enjoy my holiday better than this year for next time -_-


Just one week before holiday ends. I wanna go to school as soon as possible because... I miss someone. Eh, actually He will be one of my schoolmates..hmmm He's will be my junior at school~ And honestly, I've already got crushed on him since 2 years ago... Huffft lol okay I think that's all Bye