Today is the last day of 2010. For me, every year mean something different. I have some unforgettable experience every year. But I think a lot of good things and bad things happened throughout this year and I want to write these things, and what I want to accomplish next year.
Awesome Moments :
- Big 10 from the top in my class...you know this is my first top 10 after 4 years without achievement.
- Making friends with my crush when I was grade 8... and after 2 years Thanks God he already acquainted with me.
- Owned my very first laptop since July.
- Decrease my weight for about 5kgs :|
- When He said "Happy Birthday" to me.... It means everything.
- Followed by Justin Bieber on Twitter <3 I would never forget that date, May 8th 2010.
- Using glasses... my eyes have a little hard minus and cylinder disease. It's hard to me to live my life without glasses -_-
- Social class, even my parents don't really like it and at first honestly I hate it but now I'm so grateful.
- I got my new handphone on January.
- Became committee of Smansa's School Orientation as coordinator of 10 B from OSIS
- The best from the others, my parents marriage still okay.
And actually still many more. Now look how my Horrible Moments are not really different with me Awesome Moments.
Horrible Moments :
- Big 10 from the bottom in my class. It happened when I was in grade 10.
- Never talked to my crush anymore and it's killing me softly...
- Broke my very first laptop and I have to brought it to repaired.
- Increase my weight for about..... I don't want to remember.
- When some people forget my birthday. 16 are not always suprising.
- Unfollowed by some of my close friends on Twitter and I don't know why.
- Suffered at school just because I sit on the back and I can't see anything on the whiteboard.
- Social Class, at first I cried and my parents yelling at me. They were so disappointed... So do I.
- Leaving OSIS and won't become committee of any events anymore.
- The worst is, my parents have a big fight... I mean they are arguing about everything I don't even know and they ALMOST separated.
Life is like roller coaster! The phrase turned out to be really true for my life. Somehow things that can make me happy also makes me destroyed instantly. Things that I think so special can be sickening. Vice versa. Human life, like my life was not much give variety for happy or sad things. But I 'm so grateful for every moments that come to me. They teach me how to feel sick, suffer, happy, glad, then I go back down to earth.
After 2010, there are still many things that I should fix and revised. As for example closeness to God. Still lacking. My school life. Must be corrected so next year I can go top 5. Love life. I think this story depends on luckness ........ and I do not know if I'm lucky next year.
Goodbye 2010, I hope 2011 some things are not stay the same. I hope I can finished my every problems which come next year. And of course everyone want to be better right?
What do you think about lying? Sucks? Disgusting? Inappropriate? Whatever you say I will not take any actions. I have personal experience about lying. I ever did it. Yes, lying. Of course! Everyone in this world ever do it No matter if it just once on their lifetime, everyone must be lying. But what if I do it continously to my closest friends? You might be thinks I am so damn evil. I called myself as a LIAR! One thing you should know, Lying doesn't always purpose to be wicked. Why? Because sometimes, it happened without any motivation. It comes without any please. It comes on its way and I don't know why it begin.
Honestly, when I was in grade 7, I said to my best friend, "I have a boyfriend! Now I'm going steady." or something like that. It was not true, but she asked me to tell how it happened, how could I know him, etc. I don't have any strength to say "Sorry, it just a kidding." or "It is not true, I'm lying" but I started to tell a bullshit. I don't know what I said all I know It just a bullshit. There is a little pain on my deepest heart after I did it but when they ask me to tell more I can't force myself to stop. And yeah that's how my bullshit life story begin.
A year passed and my bullshit story becomes more and more serious. I told my best friends that some boys are falling in love with them. I made them happy even though it just a lie. I am so scared if someday they know I was lying so I started to slowly make they forget but suddenly they know it. They were so angry but time passed and they forgave me. Until this second they might be still not forget what I have done. I don't know. I regret for what I've done, I know karma does exist and I don't know where when and how karma will come to me.
And actually I wrote this just to make they believe that I NEVER lying in purpose to wicked them. And I really hate it if anyone ask me why I did it. I just don't know...
