Saturday? Holiday? What A Stratled Moment

I am sure I am not excessive giving title like this. Yes, SMA Negeri 1 Pontianak, place where I'm schooling is one of the most parsimonious school to give holiday to their students. As long as I learn here my school which called 'Independent School Category' It just gives us a holiday when there are important events or national holidays such as Idul Fitri holidays or Christmas Day. The rest they did give holiday like other schools but with much less time than other schools. If another school have holidays about 3 days, our school have only 2 or even 1 day. Sometimes, uh actually, it always makes me envy-_-

Well today, what a coincidence, like the miracles that fall from the sky (okay I'm too over) MY SCHOOL HAVE HOLIDAY WHILE OTHERS SCHOOL DO NOT! How much fun haha. Why today's my school gets off while others do not? It turns out the teachers who teach at my school have to attend training IHT (I forget the stands)

Yeah anyway it's not important to think anymore right? The only important thing today is I can spend my time at home all day from morning until night. Coupled with next day is Sunday as well. I will make a cup of coffee milk and spread the happiness~

Simak

Baca secara fonetik

Ugh too many unimportant posts in this blog. Sorry for spamming. I just want to tell the world how glad I am just because one day -_-

Glasses

             Yesterday, my mom bought me a new glasses. I was so glad to knew that start from now I did not have to move to the closest chair from whiteboard in my class anymore. So happy to saw the writing on the whiteboard doesn't grey-coloured anymore. Well, my left-eye suffered from a combination of abnormalities. That means my eyes suffered minus and astigmatism. I was minus 0.5 and astigmatism is also 0.5. Meanwhile my right eye does not have astigmatism but only minus 0.5. But still despite the minus was small, I could not see clearly objects or writings that were located far away from me .

 my glasses

         Sure I've always been conscious that my eyes was hard to see something far or we called it minus.But since I sit on this 2nd grade of senior high school, I feel sorrow in teaching and learning in the classroom because I was sitting in the back and in the corner of class. It was right if I could not record the task or notes correctly from my chair.

And yeah, that was not big problem anymore.  Now I have my own glassess!!! To help me seeing. ( I felt so old-_-)

Personal Notes : I have alerady change my avatar on Twitter and my profile pictures on Facebook into my pictures with glasses.... No comment.  It was not wrong if I want to be a little  narcissistic right?

it's me yeah meeeeh 

  

don't ask me why I look so....euh

Why "Unexpected"?

Last night I changed my header. I changed it from 'deaandiany's' into 'Unexpected' That's what I felt right now. I have known well that my friends love me, as long as I know I didn't have haters, yet.

But just it. I always know if someone want to talk to me they may just getting bored and don't know who to talk with. But I'm not so desperate like you thought of course. I knew some of them talk to me sincerely from their deepest heart haha. Yeah... once again, I'm still unexpected. Many people doesn't care if I am not appeared at school or anywhere I should in. Many people doesn't even ever thought what words they should use to insulted me or make me smile. Many people doesn't need to know if I am happy or sad. Many people doesn't ever make any plan what could they do for make simple surprises on my birthday...

The point is, no one care with me.

Sometimes I envy with someone who get bullyed by others (Yes, I'm not lying!) It means that even people hate them but people care with them even they just wanna make em suffered.

And I really envy with anyone who got surprised on their birthday. Really. Envy. Until this second I am 16 and no one ever made a surprise for me even my own bestfriend. Sad? Honestly yes. But I keep smiling because friendship not depends on any birthday surprise, ryt?

Whatever. I just hoped on my sweet seventeen next year someone will give me unforgettable surprises...lol how stupid I am, expecting for surprise that never came.

Galau. Hubbub.

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being along never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.